I hate me and my fat fucking self I am so disgusting I’ve gained 3 pounds and I can totally see it I am so fucking fat fat fat fat fat and ugly it’s going to take me forever to get back down to where I was I had made SO much progress and I fucked it all up completely. There is no way I can look good again by Friday so that Flo can see and notice that I’ve lost weight. So not going to happen. I have fat as fuck legs and I can see all this blubber around my waist and I hate it so much I just can’t stop eating!!! I feel like purging WHY CAN’T I PURGE??!! it just doesn’t work for me! what the hell I’m so annoyed and depressed and I hate myself with a burning fucking passion. I hate hate hate my fat fucking self stop eating stop existing you don’t deserve any food for a long long time. But since I am so unbelievably pathetic I know I will get hungry tomorrow and give in to it and eat. I hate that I hate myself I just want this holiday season to be over so that I don’t have any temptation to eat horribly and fatenning foods I am so fat never ever think otherwise WHY would I ever tell myself I am thin and can eat. I am so pathetic shut up you are stupid and you don’t know what you’re talking about start getting some fucking self control you are so annoying I hate all of my fat and it’s all my fault I’m stupid. I ruined myself in a matter of 5 days. This sucks you need to workout so badly.
