I know that a lot of my binge eating episodes are from my mind. The other part would be the actual binging itself. I feel like I just need a new way of looking at hunger and dieting. I’m not on a diet, I’m just replacing shit food with good and wholesome foods to keep my body CLEAN. When I’m hungry, I just need to breathe, relax, and just say I’m hungry. I dont need to freak out and think omg what am I going to eat and when will I eat it and how much of it will I eat and how many calories and.!##$$ Just chill and think of something HEALTHY and WHOLESOME to keep me fuller longer! Don’t think about when the next time I’m going to eat is and omg how long will I be full? If I’m hungry, I should eat something small and drink water with it. It’s not like it’ll be the last time I eat something. I usually have to wait max 6 hours to eat again while other people in the world have to wait days to eat again. 6 hours really isn’t that long and I’ll be fineeeeeeee. Just breathe and relax. Everything will be fine! And DO NOT resort to binging!!!! EVER! Binging is not an option!! Eating a little extra is fine, if it’s in moderation and it’s a reasonable amount. Stop the binging. My next binge will be on Christmas Eve and then Christmas Day because it’s the holidays and I can do that. It’s no biggie. I only have about 9 days until then. I can fucking do it. I know I can. I will. I will do it to prove it to myself that I am much stronger than my eating disorder and that I can suppress all of the thoughts and urges and cravings.
