So I have lots to say but I want to try and say it in as short a post as possible. This will still be a very long post ha ha! Anyway, I’ve eaten a lot these past few days because of Christmas and having just a ton of food shoved at me and in my face and I’ve gained about 3 pounds. My goal for the next month or so is to lose it again but I don’t think that’s going to happen until after Winter Break. I’m going to do well tomorrow and run and everything but I had a little binge today and I think I’m at around 1600 calories for the day which isn’t really all that bad. I want to go to the gym later but I also don’t want to because 1. it’s a little expensive and 2. I’m kind of tired. That leads me to my next dilemma which is tonight’s biggest too. Flo invited me to go see a movie with her, her boyfriend, her mom, and some family friend of theirs. I want to because I want to spend time with Flo and even her boyfriend I guess and also to just get out of the house, but I don’t want to because her mother/family friend will be there and I just know it’s going to be so incredibly awkward. Plus the movie is rated R so I’m going to need some help with getting into that which is just plain embarrassing. I am honestly at such a loss I can not decide what I want to do!!! If I go it will probably be fine, not fun, but fine and I can just get out and about and if I don’t go then I’ll have a window of opportunity to go to the gym and burn off some of today’s mistake and avoid a very awkward encounter with her mother. Then again, maybe this is my chance to get her mother to like me so that it doesn’t have to be awkward anymore. I think I’m leaning more towards going rather than not going. I don’t want to just bitch out of this and not go at all. Maybe I can make plans to see her tomorrow too because she said they don’t have too much to do tomorrow anyway. Who knows. Ugh, okay. I’m going and that is final. Just be polite and sweet and laugh when it’s appropriate.
