I have had actually a very good week. I have worked out and eaten right for 3 days now and it feels great to have gone 3 days without binging. I feel so much better about myself. I do not feel the same way I would though when I weighed 123 because I just don’t look that way anymore. I can see a huge difference in my body even if other people can’t. It is honesty so frustrating and I just can’t wait to be back down at 123. I actually don’t know what I weigh right now and to be frank I don’t want to know for another couple of weeks of fresh eating and exercise. This way I will have more confidence that I’ve made some sort of progress. Hopefully I will weigh between 120 and 125. I’m actually really nervous to know officially but I remember getting the best feeling when I saw I was below 125 especially that one time I was 120. I am going to get back to that point and I’m going tostay there this time. Next winter break, I will not let myself go for more than 1 day which is Christmas. I am making myself a promise now.
And can I just say that I am beyond nervous to find out if I’m accepted into VMI or not?!?! I will know THIS December! Holy shit. I need to get in. I fucking need to or I swear I will hate myself.
