Starting tomorrow I am eating right and exercising everyday. Ian do sick of starting over i just want to be back down to the size I was before. It is so damn frustrating getting myself back on track and is taking a lot longer than I thought it would. Sick of starting over so I’m going to stop giving up. On days where I’m just really hungry I will eat a little more but not to the point that it’s a binge. I’ll eat an extra banana or apple or even a third serving at dinner if I need to but that is as far as it will go. It’s jut so hard watching everyone at school eat so unhealthily and eat whatever they want and knowing they don’t have to worry about it. It just really sucks and it makes it that much harder for me to stay on track and push out all of my binging thoughts. Nobody understands and I’ll never tell anyone but I will get back down. I feel like if I can just go a certain period of time without binging then I’ll be able to handle myself better. And I’ve noticed that now when I binge 1 I need more food to satisfy myself which is horrible and 2 I get headaches the next day. I’ve noticed that the past two times I’ve binged. They aren’t bad enough to stop me though but I really want to go a month of smart and right eating which includes having to eat a LITTLE extra from time to time. That would be so sweet. Today is February 9th. I just want to make it to march 1st. Please I need to find the resistance deep down to do this
