3 days strong! Now they have not been very good deficit wise but still I have not binged and not had really big cravings for it either. I am right now which tells me that tomorrow I will probably have some but I’m not going to give in. It’s just not worth it like it tastes good but that only lasts as long as I’m eating whereas the guilt and anger and frustration lasts forever. I am still upset with myself for all the times I have before. Just the fact that it tastes good or I’m hungry just isn’t a good enough reason. It just is not worth it. I find myself thinking well when CAN I binge then if not now or anytime soon? Honestly I don’t want to ever! Except for rare occasions. This transformation of myself is all about ending those planned binges and getting rid of the urges to randomly so I can stop this crazy addiction. It’s all about healthy eating and making myself stronger and leaner. I want to see how I would look if i kept up this eating and exercise for an entire month. I hope I don’t get any chocolate tomorrow even though I have a slight feeling that I’ll get some Kim of treat. I am going to eat it tomorrow unless I can help it. I LOVE chocolate so much. This diet has made me appreciate chocolate so much more. Thats why I can’t create all of these restrictions on myself because it’s only making me crave it more so when I get the chance to eat it, I go overboard. I just remembered I might have Reese’s in my trash can. I hope I’m wrong. I’m not going to look I refuse.
